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I'm chilling!!!!
At
this very moment, listening to the raindrops dance on the cars outside my window
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| 12.30.04 (6:54 pm) [edit] |
Question is ... will I be sitting here on New Year's Eve eve 2005...wishing I'd done more..
I've completely wasted this past year of my life - as per usual - I talk the talk ...but when it comes to walking the walking ...I'm under my bed looking for a clean pair of socks.
Also, I've never been a resolver ...as i lack the resolve to resolve ... in other words - I lack follow through - that sticktoit-ness!
If I decided to ... no ... I if DID what is on my mind, and in my heart - how would that affect my boys?
I've operated in the mindset that I need to be the stable rock solid influence in their life. Trynna make up for the lack of father figure ... but somewhere in the shuffle - I ignored that nagging lil bi'atch named Kendall! I've put off what I want to do because I didn't want to take any time, energy, or money from them.
The result - I am pretty much miserable, frustrated, easily aggravated and broke.
In the midst of trynna be what I thought was best for all -
I lost sight of the truth ... which is - my health and happiness are integral parts of my maintaining a strong successful familial unit.
Just random thoughts as I sit here putting the finishing touches on a website that I've created for a friend of mine who has oodles of "justdothadamnthing" a.k.a. motivation/follow through!
*SIGH*
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posted by: eka00 (reply)
post date: 12.31.04 (9:51 pm)
I hope this coming year could be the harbinger of the change you want to see in your life.
Boy, it sure's been one rough ride. And you're one tough woman. :-)
I'll always be around, reading you...you've taught me that it's okay to ask for help and to rely on other people.
Happy New Year, :-)
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